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"I want to be selfish with your love.",  he says. She can read between the lines. Your self-esteem is low right now and you are just looking for a good time. I... am... not... that woman! "My biggest regret is you!" he replies. She smiles and shakes her head. I know you are trying to make up your mind and maybe test the waters but I am not desperate! I am a woman of purpose. I am optimistic and I will help you out of the pit. But if you think you are going to just sleep with me with no com-mitt-ment, your intentions are not Heaven sent! I have been been through this scenario several times before...my reply remains the same...to the left is the door. My advice; your knees are where you need to be, praying to the good Lord almighty!

The flower has bloomed, the art is live The truth revealed. Spirit alive Create with passion, boldness and haste fearless, courage...luxurious in taste Green and piercing...red and fierce earth and fire...Flame within....Twins... Soul connection...EMBRACE THE RED Comfort here. Stress reliever. Picking up tomorrows' here... saving the best for last-at-last we are here. Can I trust you with my fears after all-these-years...of...waiting for you?

Pet peeve: leaving your plate on the counter instead of putting it in the sink... I like to share...the only requirement, don't touch my things. So, you are too good to take out the trash? No stress...I'll take it out... but don't expect me to cook so you can eat... You disconnect the fire alarm...light candles with no match. Don't look at me sideways...I see the embers in the trash...you're reckless... Matter of fact, as I write this, I'm eating Grits, red beans...Thanksgiving leftovers for breakfast... I drink Green Tea with ginger and lemon...no sugar needed... I can't stand clutter...Winter time Spring cleaning ~

Fula, Balanta, Mende, Catawba...somewhere in Europe by way of Alabama... Mulatto, light skinned, all the way down to the richest of color My black is my black...Maxton, Marion, Dillon and Mullins My great Aunt Mayzell and Aunt Judy sat on their hair. Uncle Ernest hair straight...Great-grandma Sicily, wavy loose curly...mustang black... touched with a sprinkle of Gray Great-great-great-grandma Josephine, Uncle Julius and eight others... descendants of Albert Williams, my great-great-great-great grandfather.... He considered himself black unlike, Aaron, his identical twin brother. First black teacher in Marion, or so indicates their research...self-sufficiency discovered Ciff Lee, mothers father, only met him once in person but over 30 years desired. 6 foot 4 gentle giant...so many questions unanswered...still yet, I can't stomach to form the words to say that I ever blamed ya James Buie Sr, the only one I knew as Granddad growing up, I salute you and that rifle.RIP...l...

What have we become? A symptom of Black Market injections Fix-A-Flat, Cement, illegally obtaining Silicone for a bigger bum... The videos glorify the fakeness that you want to become Because you have perceived it in your mind, the damage has already been done. Whatever happened to squats and lunges...doing things the old-fashioned way? Wanting to be the object of his desire...meanwhile, killing yourself ever so softly I see your jeans screaming at the seams...you refuse to hear them... thinking the bigger the better... until you be Cardiac-arresting, retarding your personal development. You control your image, not what they silently promote... They like to see it, sleep with it, feel it...understanding the difference... definition of what a freak is. Love yourself for you being you...instead of paying homage to those additives that will remain constant even after you cease to exist Girls going overseas...dying for bum injections. Fake nurse traveling from Asia to Australia...

2 years 2 minutes, the amount of time between our births. Same doctor, same hospital, we are some type of twins for what it's worth. Our understanding, her understanding, my understanding mother earth. Raised by a Virgo, perfection is a must...We see imperfection as beauty...Status quo don't give a fuh Long locs, short locs, sandels, heels and high tops...Introverted, extroverted, at times the same. ...Two down to earth sisters...I am very aware that I am the one that looks mean I will tell you "no" in a heartbeat, she might tell you "yes" in a second. I'll read your energy for what it's worth...She does the same but only focuses on what's best. 930 days 120 seconds...the amount of time we are apart...dare to get connected...our passions, our minds, our heart... Creativity, a must or we both will get bored...don't lie or break a promise...now that you can't afford... We forgive as we don't stay angry very long...Our attent...

Gently and strategically covering my blemishes ...creating the foundation for a flawless finish I am what you see but what lies below is much deeper the glass in which I see is unique to few people I choose to see beauty. I choose to make lemonade...I choose to see the sunshine after the rain I am connected to the foundation where strength becomes naked...to support the designs of my hands... my mind...one goal...perfection Make the time to be imperfectly perfected. Rise to greater heights...It's okay to love different... My heart won't hide...My lips...my eyes cannot tell a lie Comfort...conversation. Beauty meets the eye Apply as much concealer as you truly need... But remember to let your foundation breathe. Paint the colors that you crave to be. Be bold...unyielding... In the know...Be free ~